The hardest journey

I know this will be your hardest journey but remember; God will never leave you nor forsake you.

Bible and noteThese are my husband’s words in a letter to me that I found in his Bible, after his death. I remember them every time I have a ‘teary day’, or fall down a hole. But recently I ‘connected some dots’, as the saying goes.

Please let me explain.

Geoff, using the oxymiser,
From the viewing room, overlooking Freshman Bay

I was hunting through the many photograph files on my computer, looking for one I took of Geoff in the ‘viewing room’ of the hospice. No, the ‘viewing room’ was not for the body… it was a room with a magnificent view out over Freshman Bay.

The reason I wanted to find it, was to move it to recent photos of Geoff. That was the last time he was out of his room. But I could not find it. I checked my camera, in case I had not taken it off.  (I was not thinking too well at that time.)

As I examined so many pictures, I found a different one,  one that was taken the day before my surgery in September 2012. I looked at the photo, and cried. The look in his eyes held such pain. It haunted me.

When my daughter visited, I showed her the picture, still upset about the look in his eyes.

“Given the circumstances, what would you expect Mum?” she asked.

The circumstances? The  day after taking the photo, I was going into hospital to have a graft inserted into most of my aorta. It was a risky procedure. But we had talked about it, prayed about it, counselled about it, and looked at the alternative. The alternative was that Geoff continue to live as he had for the previous nine months… fearing the aneurysm would burst. (Three surgeons had told me that I was a time-bomb waiting to go off.)

Geoff, Aquarium
Photo credit – John Reiss

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Yes, my precious husband, whose thoughts were for me as he faced his own death, had some knowledge of ‘the hardest journey’.

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He had lived with the anxiety of my painful death and his own helplessness, during the long months leading up to the surgery. (He had shared that with me.) He had looked at the possibility of life without me. So when he said in another letter I found, “I put myself in your shoes and it hurts…” he had some experience of what those shoes would feel like.

I am sure he also knew that I would take the pain and the tears to God. He did remind me in those last letters he wrote while in the hospice… “remember; God will never leave you nor forsake you.”

Oh… the connection. I was combing my hair up into a ‘bun’ the other day, and saw my eyes. The same look was there.

As all who have lost husbands, or wives, know… great love = great loss, but then there is the hope of the reunion.

Susan

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Satanic statue, history repeating itself?

“To the angel of the church in Pergamum write: ‘I know your works, and where you dwell… where Satan’s throne is. And you hold fast to my name, and did not deny my faith even in the days in which Antipas was my faithful martyr, who was killed among you, where Satan dwells.'” Revelation 2:12

Hold the Faith cover image

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In my novel, Hold the Faith (Book 1 in the Apostle John series), John hears of the death of his fellow believer Antipas, (possibly the ‘faithful martyr’ quoted above) and, in the novel, the ‘seat of Satan’ is described. (Chapter 10)

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“At the end of the first century, Pergamum was a thriving city. So why does the book of Revelation call it the dwelling place of Satan? The answer lies in the ruins of the city’s temples.

“On one side, it was a very beautiful city,” says Renner. “But on the flip side, it was one of the darkest, eeriest cities in the whole Roman Empire.”

The people of Pergamum were known as the “Temple-keepers of Asia.” The city had three temples dedicated to the worship of the Roman emperor, another for the goddess Athena, and the Great Altar of Zeus, the king of the Greek gods. Many scholars believe this altar is the “Throne of Satan” mentioned in the book of Revelation.

Seat Satan altar

“That word ‘throne’ was used in a personal private residence, and it was a chair for the lord of the house, the master of the house,” says Renner. “The very fact that Jesus would use this word means that Satan felt at home there. He sat on a throne there. It was his territory. He was the master of that house.”

http://www.cbn.com/700club/features/churchhistory/pergamon/ez28_seat_of_satan_part_1.aspx

Is history repeating itself?

I refer to the article here http://newyork.cbslocal.com/2014/01/06/n-y-group-applies-to-build-satan-statue-at-oklahoma-state-capitol/

I will not insert the image.

Am I alone in being concerned?

The image includes children by the throne.

“The statue will also have a functional purpose as a chair where people of all ages may sit on the lap of Satan for inspiration and contemplation.”

Hello?

Speechless for once,

Susan